R.E.S.P.E.C.T

R- Respect. Demand to be Respected. Don’t let people walk all over you because your trying to be nice. There’s a different between being nice and being foolish. If they’ve shown they don’t respect you, move on. Stop trying to explain to disrespectful people how they should be treating you. They know, they are just choosing not to show you the respect you deserve. So moving forward you don’t need that in your circle.

E- Expectations. Stop Expecting people to do and be something they are not. Just because you expect people to treat you well doesn’t mean they will. You expect that someone you care about would apologize when they’ve hurt you, but expectations can set you up for failures. Learn to separate expectations and reality.

S- Standards. Have Standards, and that goes for anyone, any type of relationships. If you don’t want to deal with people who constantly talk behind your back, talk down about you, never wanna help you, don’t build you up, don’t stick up for you when necessary and dont benefit your life in any way, Dont! Its doesnt matter if their family either. They got to go! I’m not saying be mean, I’m saying know your worth.

P- Presentation. If people Present themselves as fake, believe what you seeing. If they’ve show you they ain’t no good, stop having faith in bad people to do right. Actions always speak louder than words. Observe how people present their true selves. Don’t get hurt because you chose to wear blinders.

E- Effort. If you put forth an Effort to call, text and check on others but they don’t do it for you, pay attention. Its doesn’t have to be 50/50 but 90/10 is not acceptable. Stop making an effort to run yourself in the ground trying to worry about people who are not worried about you.

C- Commitment. Stop Committing yourself to those who would not make those same commitments to you. You’ll find yourself always upset and stating how you continue to do for people what they wouldn’t think to do for you in return. That’s letting people borrow money, baby-sitting their children, giving them rides, being a good listener, etc.

T- Time. Stop trying to delay when someone’s Time is up in your life. Everyone is not meant to go into the next chapter with you and thats okay. If they’ve served their purpose in your life, when its time to let them go, let them go.

Moving Pass the Past

Many of us can think of one or more situations in our past that has either left us broken-hearted or mentally scarred. Most of us have been able to forgive those people or move on past that hurt. Though there’s still a lot of us that have not been able to let go of the past.

It seems so easy to say that something is no longer bothering you until it comes up. Then all of those feelings of hurt, shame, anger, fear, or sadness come rushing back like they never left. Well that is because they didn’t leave, you’ve only suppressed those feelings. Meaning that you buried those emotions deep down. You just stopped thinking about them but never truly faced them.

Holding on to things the that hurt us don’t heal us. In order for us to heal, and move forward we must acknowledge those things no matter how bad they are. Start forgiving people, not for them, but for you. You may not forget it, but forgiveness will set you free from the very thing that you’ve been holding on to. Forgiveness is not easy. It’s a process that does take time. You may not heal overnight but you will heal overtime.

I’ve learned from experience that if your waiting on a “I’m Sorry” you could be waiting on something you will never get. We have to forgive those who hurt us, because they aren’t holding onto that pain, we are. Believe it or not, sometimes people don’t even know they’ve caused you pain. Then because we expect them to know they’ve hurt us, we’re walking around mad, and upset at the world.  Sometimes we even assume the worst of people who want to give us their best. Just because one or more people wrongs you doesn’t mean that everyone will.

Moving on is the best thing that you can do for you. No one can protect your heart, your feelings or your energy like you can. If you are not religious I respect your decision but if you are encourage you to pray about it. Seek guidance when trying to let go of those painful memories, hurtful words, and those eerie feelings. Allow yourself to trust again, and open up to good people. Don’t assume future relationships will repeat the mistakes of your past ones. I wish you all the best as we all work on shaking off our past.

“How can we move towards the future if we can’t move pass the past”.

Bianca Williams (me)
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I Am (Who I Say I Am)

More than often we need to speak life, positive, encouraging, and empowering words to ourselves. Learning to not speak defeat as it will overcome you. Sometimes we are stressed or not feeling like ourselves. This may be due to work, home, friends, family, bills, childcare, corona virus (these days), and whatever else bothers us or gets us worked up. Remember, the tongue is more powerful than you may think. We should all take caution to the things we say in regards to who we are. Claim that success. You are and achiever. You are Smart. You are Winning. Repeat.

I take time to myself weekly to uplift myself and my spirit. Spend sometime to create some “I Am’s” to uplift yourself. Mines are listed below:

I am Bianca.

I am a child of God.

I am Strong.

I am a Wise.

I am a Magnificent.

I am a Fighter.

I am Succesful.

I am Brilliant.

I am Able.

I am Grateful.

I am a Business Owner.

I am Good at everything I put my mind to.

I am Setting my Own Path.

I am Hopeful.

I am somebody Great.

I am going Far in Life.

I am Who I Say I Am.

💙Please feel free to share with me your take away from this exercise!!💙

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Twenty-Seven and Clueless

I’m at a point in my life where I keep asking myself, “What do you want to do with your life?’. I’m trying to figure out who I am, what I like, and what I want to do.

Remember as you were growing up you had all of these hopes, dreams, and things you wanted to accomplish? Well as a child I thought I wanted to be a teacher, one who was friendly and really helped her students. I changed my mind once I got to middle school, children are bad. As a teenager my dream was to become a very successful singer who would be loved greatly by my fans. Then I decided to smoke cigarettes now my voice is not what it once was. As an adult in my earlier twenties I started school run my own daycare one day (following in the foot steps of my mother) but after I had my first child I only wanted to be with my baby. I went to school to be come a Medical Assistant. I just knew that that was my calling and I would retire from a hospital or doctors office. Sad to say it but that too has become a thing of my past.

Currently I’m not sure what I want to do with my life. I’m a wife and a mother and that seems to be all I know and I’m good at. I dream again to travel the world but I don’t have the money to do so. I’ve started and stopped a lot of different businesses or hobbies but I never stick to them long enough. I’ve tried to sing, act, go to school, teach yoga, promote health and wellness, sell clothing, be a blogger, write short stories, and a few other projects/crazy ideas. None of my projects ever stick and I always end back at square one. I end up back clueless searching for my purpose in life once more.

I want to do something with my life I can be not only proud of but something that will make me genuinely happy. I want to do something that allows me to live out my dream of traveling and seeing the world but what is that something?

I’m an independent women

I’m not use to not having to hustle.
I’m not use to not having to do it all.

I’ve been an independent women every since I’ve been seventeen years old. Though yes I’ve had times I had to stick a hand out or ask for a favor I have always had to look out for me. I went from living with my grandmother to staying with friends, to staying with my stepmom to getting my very own apartment all by nineteen. I had my first daughter at that age and I’ve felt the need to be a go-getter/hustler every since.



I was a single mother. Who else was going to take care of me and my little girl if I didnt. I worked so many jobs I think I missed out on moments but we had to survive. If you didnt know me you wouldnt think I was going home to a kid every night the way I worked to provide for her.


By twenty-four I had my second daughter, still having to be a single mother, but I was better established kinda. I only worked one job so I had more of a routine to be a little bit more present the second time around. I’m not going to act like I didnt struggle though.


After having my second daughter I lost my position at work and wasnt able to go right back to work after my leave and it left me devastated and depressed. Still I pushed forward and they were able to place me after a two month wait and a eviction notice.

Current day I’m twenty-seven and my are things different. I have a wonderful husband, whom I’ve been with three years. I’m currently pregnant with my third child (first son). I’m not working, kinda by choice. Also kinda because my husband agreed for me to quit my last job, kinda so I could go back to school and plus it’s a little hard to get a job to accept you months before your due. Either way it’s been driving me nuts.

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Who has time to blog?

Seriously. How can I manage everything and find time to do something I love? I’m too busy. I have about four more loads of clothes to wash four or five to fold, dishes need to be done, my bathroom needs attention, I have homework for three different classes, I need to remember that my oldest has parent/teacher conferences tomorrow and not miss it, I need to call and set an arrangement for my car note , and my room definitely needs me to finish cleaning it.

I also gotta try and squeeze in some alone time in with my husband this weekend, gotta spend some solid time with the girls giving them my love and all my kisses, almost forgot, have to grocery shop on Saturday, oh and I took this part time job at a school (which I started today and I’m very sick so it was terrible), and I’m working all day tomorrow (Friday) so please pray my strength in the Lord.

I need to find time to rest, I really need to take down my daughters hair like today she has picture day Monday, I need to take this cornish hen out the freezer if I plan on having it for dinner Saturday and I need to sit down with hubby and go over our budget the next two weeks.

I just remembered I have to make my youngest and myself a appointment to see the dentist soon. Her school states its mandatory for her to continue attending head start so I better get on that asap. I need an assistant. Reminders set in my phone, notes on a calendar, or relying on my brain is just not enough. So where do I find time to hobby right now? I’m laying in bed throwing this together and getting sleeper by the minute. My womb baby is kicking or flipping up a storm and I need him to tone it down a notch.

How do you all do it? Im exhausted just writing about it. Not to mention I didn’t mention anything about managing my social life.
Do any of you feel overwhelmed with life Duties right now? What are you doing to manage? I’d love to hear from you. Tips are appreciated.

Starting Chapter 27 in my life.

The cake I bought to cheer myself up.

A few days ago I celebrated my twenty seventh birthday. Believe it or not I didnt wake up the happiest about it though. Yes, I’m thankful that I woke up that day, in good health, and alive to enjoy my family another day. The thing is I’ve been stressed a lot lately.

Our bills at home are behind, I’m going through ups and downs raising my children, I’m currently pregnant (so very emotional), I’m struggling in school and I work but not as much so money is an issue. I cant forget to mention that my husband works from sun up until sun down trying his best to support us, which means I miss him greatly. Work though had been on edge for him though. He was working full time has a cook at a restaurant. He ending up picking up a second job to increase his experience and make more money but three months in, because we were unable to obtain his GED, they let him go. For weeks he was only working twenty hours a week at the restaurant and the pay is very little, so our bills suffered. He recently picked up another full time job cooking at another restaurant so he’s back to two jobs but now we are playing catch up.

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