School during Covid-19

Most or all parents are currently discussing weather or not to send there children back to school in the fall. I can say that I have had mixed emotions about my decision. I’m a parent that works Full-time. So I know other parents can agree with me that we almost need for our children to go back to school. I need to work to provide for my family, therefore I don’t have a lot of time to really teach my children, though I do work with them at home.

Attending school allows for about 30 hours a week of engaging in different subjects, socializing among their peers, patient teachers, and room to work on their motor skills. Not to mention they also provide free lunch. I’m going to be honest, I depend on the schools to feed my kids lunch 5 days a week for 10 months of the year (minus school breaks). Take that however you like, but I know I’ll see and increase of money spent on groceries if I keep them home.

My children are looking forward to going back to school. My girls will be going to preschool and the third grade. They continue to remind me that they cannot wait to see their teachers and their friends again. With school letting out really early due to covid, my kids have grown sick of me. They want to engage with other children their age. I understand their need for a new/familiar environment. I work from home so we hardly ever leave the house. Everyday my four year old asks me can we go somewhere. She really wants to just get out the house.

During this summer break I’ve bought books and signed up for online learning to keep my children’s skills sharp. I bought books for math, reading comprehension, science, geography, writing, and grammar. I even got my four year old all types of flash cards so we could continue to work on her shapes, numbers, and letters. Even with all of that, I’m not a teacher. I don’t have any lesson plans, a structured teaching method, or the patience. Plus their teaching a different method of math than I learned when I was elementary. Half the time I hoping my eight year old knows what shes doing because I have no clue.

After much thought, I did decide to keep my little ones at home this year. My reasons are not all covid related because the God I serve is bigger than this virus. My main reason is because I’m working from home. I would have to quit working to be able to take the kids to school and pick them up because of the time I work. I’m not a millionaire yet, so I can’t really afford to quit working. Most of school year is during Flu-season, not going to chance it this year since we have the choice to keep the children home. Also, don’t get me started, if they start asking about a covid vaccine the answer is no.

I plan to continue to work with my preschooler when I get off work and buy my third grader a laptop so she can learn virtually. This will be a new experience for all of us. Of course everyone will decide what is best for them.

Sometimes, I really want to quit my job!

Some of you are probably saying “don’t we all”.  So for those who love their jobs/careers this one is not for you but do read anyway.

Six reasons why I want to quit are as follows:

  1. This job doesn’t make me happy. I am grateful to have a job. I just want to wake up everyday and do something that brings me joy instead.
  2. Working full-time takes me away from my kiddos. My youngest 3 are 8, 4, & 5 months. So though I’m here at home with them, I might as well be away in a office.
  3. I was not working for 10 months prior to this job. I was enjoying the stay at home mom lifestyle. Last year when I find out I was pregnant my hubby and I agreed I would stay home during and after the pregnancy for a while. So I feel spoiled now.
  4. I ended up getting a work from home position as a Customer Service Rep. Retail is not my thing. The last time I was in retail I worked for Family Dollar for over a year 7 years ago. Hated it.
  5. My background has to be quite. Trying to keep my kids quite (especially the baby) in their own home is not the easiest. My kids come up to my room all day asking for things or needing my help.
  6. Customer Service is frustrating. Dealing with upset people all day really rubs off on you. Every other customer has a nasty, and I mean nasty attitude. I get screamed at and cursed out more times then I can handle. I work for a large company and the customers make the job Super Stressful. I need a bottle of wine after every shift.

Again, I am happy to have a job. If it wasn’t for this job then I would not have or be able to do the things in my next list. It’s just, while trying to find myself and what would make me happy this job is the first on my list to go. I use to be a Medical Assistant and I’ve been asked “would you go back” and the answer is no! Here’s the thing, I don’t know what I want to do, I just know I don’t want to do this until I retire. My only desire, I’m sure of, is to travel the world. I just can’t do that with no money.

Here’s my list of 5 good reason why I keep my job:

  1. To provide for my family of course.
  2. To save us some money for buying a home, vacations, or rainy days. My husband pays most bills, so I’m able to put my check in the savings account.
  3. I wanted to be able to help my hubby with bills. I wanted to take the load off of him so much.
  4. So I can have money of my own. I love online shopping, and being able to afford my up keep. With that being said, I didn’t want to keep having to ask my husband for the money to do so.
  5. I do enjoy work most days, I’m not the kind of person that can just keep still. I just wish I could have full-time money with part-time hours.

Overall, I’m not really going to quit my job. At least not right now. I just really want to at times. Especially when calls have been back to back with nothing but angry customers who won’t let you get not a word in. I just wish there was something else for me. I’d go into business for myself but I don’t know what that would be or where I would start.

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Book Club Anyone?!

I don’t know about the rest of you but I’ve never had a thing for crocheting. I don’t really play video games anymore, I don’t like to be outside as much, and I don’t watch TV on my own but I will watch shows with my husband. I have about two maybe three friends, maybe. Prior to Covid-19 I was going out to eat, going to the movies, and I was able downtown to the river walk. I only do those things with my husband though. Not that that’s a bad thing, as I love spending time with him, but I just wish I had more girlfriends to do things with. So, I was thinking about starting a Book Club. I want to be able to hang around women my age with maybe similar interests and sharing conversations about our lives, children, work, goals, and passions. Yes, we’ll discuss the book of course. Maybe I feel a certain way about how the main character is portrayed and someone else feels different. Great, let’s talk about it. I’ve always appreciated open discussions about a topic. It allows you to see a subject through the eyes and minds of many.


I want to be a part of something that’s enjoyable. I’d like to surround myself with good people that I can be social with. I don’t have much of a social life these days outside of my parents and siblings. I feel like a book club would be the perfect combination of building relationships and enjoying the experience, and expanding minds. I personally enjoy reading and I know that I can’t possibly be the only one. Here are the things I’m
concerned about with this idea though:

  1. Genre- I want to pick books I feel people are going to enjoy as a group.
  2. Books cost- I want to ask for the members to pay a $2-4 per month due to help fund the club books, refreshments and snacks but I don’t want that to be the reason they don’t come.
  3. Date & Time- I need to pick a day and time that works for me and others (considering a poll for potential members).
  4. Successful Start- I’m nervous because I’m the queen of starting projects I don’t finish. If people don’t show will I continue until they do? How do I get people to attend?

I have a few additional things to think about to be sure that this is really what I want to do. Again, I always have the ideas but not always the drive. Overall I’m excited. I hope that all goes as planned. I need a name for my book club as well. I’m hoping to buy what I need for the first meeting over time and start the group in August. I’d love some feedback. Any of you ever attended a book club? What did you like or not like about it?

Twenty-Seven and Clueless

I’m at a point in my life where I keep asking myself, “What do you want to do with your life?’. I’m trying to figure out who I am, what I like, and what I want to do.

Remember as you were growing up you had all of these hopes, dreams, and things you wanted to accomplish? Well as a child I thought I wanted to be a teacher, one who was friendly and really helped her students. I changed my mind once I got to middle school, children are bad. As a teenager my dream was to become a very successful singer who would be loved greatly by my fans. Then I decided to smoke cigarettes now my voice is not what it once was. As an adult in my earlier twenties I started school run my own daycare one day (following in the foot steps of my mother) but after I had my first child I only wanted to be with my baby. I went to school to be come a Medical Assistant. I just knew that that was my calling and I would retire from a hospital or doctors office. Sad to say it but that too has become a thing of my past.

Currently I’m not sure what I want to do with my life. I’m a wife and a mother and that seems to be all I know and I’m good at. I dream again to travel the world but I don’t have the money to do so. I’ve started and stopped a lot of different businesses or hobbies but I never stick to them long enough. I’ve tried to sing, act, go to school, teach yoga, promote health and wellness, sell clothing, be a blogger, write short stories, and a few other projects/crazy ideas. None of my projects ever stick and I always end back at square one. I end up back clueless searching for my purpose in life once more.

I want to do something with my life I can be not only proud of but something that will make me genuinely happy. I want to do something that allows me to live out my dream of traveling and seeing the world but what is that something?