God’s Plan

I currently don’t feel completely satisfied with my life. The only thing that I want right now but I currently lack is my Purpose. Purpose definition reads: the reason for which something is done or created. I find myself asking that question often, “Why was I created”.

I’ve prayed about this more times than I can remember. I find myself sometimes even pleading, “Lord please reveal to me why you created me, I want to know what my purpose is, and I want to step into the role you intended for me to be in”. I believe that in good time I will get the answer I’m seeking but it leaves me everyday still wondering about it. I really wanna know. I’ve been told that when it’s my time I will be informed, but sometimes I get impatient. Patience is hard to have when you want something so bad.

Many times I’m able to calm myself from being anxious about my destiny. I know deep down that I was created for a reason. Jeremiah 29:11 reads “For I know the plans I have for you” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope”. I can say that that scripture brings me great joy about the future that God has promised to me. I’m delighted knowing that He already has a plan intended just for me. He knew even before I was created why he placed me in my mother womb. I cannot wait to start fulfilling the plan the Lord has for my life. I want nothing more right now in life than to be the woman God intended for me to be. 

I plan to continue praying about my current desires for my life. I will continue to seek the answer I hope soon to be revealed to me. I love to serve the Lord. Serving Him is my main focus in life. 

Moving Pass the Past

Many of us can think of one or more situations in our past that has either left us broken-hearted or mentally scarred. Most of us have been able to forgive those people or move on past that hurt. Though there’s still a lot of us that have not been able to let go of the past.

It seems so easy to say that something is no longer bothering you until it comes up. Then all of those feelings of hurt, shame, anger, fear, or sadness come rushing back like they never left. Well that is because they didn’t leave, you’ve only suppressed those feelings. Meaning that you buried those emotions deep down. You just stopped thinking about them but never truly faced them.

Holding on to things the that hurt us don’t heal us. In order for us to heal, and move forward we must acknowledge those things no matter how bad they are. Start forgiving people, not for them, but for you. You may not forget it, but forgiveness will set you free from the very thing that you’ve been holding on to. Forgiveness is not easy. It’s a process that does take time. You may not heal overnight but you will heal overtime.

I’ve learned from experience that if your waiting on a “I’m Sorry” you could be waiting on something you will never get. We have to forgive those who hurt us, because they aren’t holding onto that pain, we are. Believe it or not, sometimes people don’t even know they’ve caused you pain. Then because we expect them to know they’ve hurt us, we’re walking around mad, and upset at the world.  Sometimes we even assume the worst of people who want to give us their best. Just because one or more people wrongs you doesn’t mean that everyone will.

Moving on is the best thing that you can do for you. No one can protect your heart, your feelings or your energy like you can. If you are not religious I respect your decision but if you are encourage you to pray about it. Seek guidance when trying to let go of those painful memories, hurtful words, and those eerie feelings. Allow yourself to trust again, and open up to good people. Don’t assume future relationships will repeat the mistakes of your past ones. I wish you all the best as we all work on shaking off our past.

“How can we move towards the future if we can’t move pass the past”.

Bianca Williams (me)

I Am (Who I Say I Am)

More than often we need to speak life, positive, encouraging, and empowering words to ourselves. Learning to not speak defeat as it will overcome you. Sometimes we are stressed or not feeling like ourselves. This may be due to work, home, friends, family, bills, childcare, corona virus (these days), and whatever else bothers us or gets us worked up. Remember, the tongue is more powerful than you may think. We should all take caution to the things we say in regards to who we are. Claim that success. You are and achiever. You are Smart. You are Winning. Repeat.

I take time to myself weekly to uplift myself and my spirit. Spend sometime to create some “I Am’s” to uplift yourself. Mines are listed below:

I am Bianca.

I am a child of God.

I am Strong.

I am a Wise.

I am a Magnificent.

I am a Fighter.

I am Succesful.

I am Brilliant.

I am Able.

I am Grateful.

I am a Business Owner.

I am Good at everything I put my mind to.

I am Setting my Own Path.

I am Hopeful.

I am somebody Great.

I am going Far in Life.

I am Who I Say I Am.

💙Please feel free to share with me your take away from this exercise!!💙